Acceptance

You have to accept yourself before you accept the problems that surround you. The key to everything around us, is love, acceptance, laughter, forgiveness, everything we live for. So People must accept you, before they learn to live with it. For example, at first nobody in my family excepted me, they resented my homosexuality. And still used gay as a slang word. But now 2 years later they love me for who I am, and accept me completely. Give it time, you can't rush someones thoughts as much as you can't rush an angry pregnant woman. You can try, but you'll only aggravate the situation. So let it be, and just cool off, don't try to help them accept, they need to do it on their own time. Hope I helped. 

Sorry it's been so long, lately I've been so busy. Went to a Paul McCartney concert, and now I feel like my anorexia is slowly returning. Sorry, but I will try to come on here and write posts as much as I can.  

Never take your own life

Sometimes being different can be hard, but maybe the hardest part is what people call "the brick wall". It's normally in a persons life, who has that chance to be suicidal. Gays and lesbians included. Its when you see this "wall" approaching with signs, that may be big hurtles in your life, but it seems like after major bump you get over, there is just another one in its absence. The tension builds up and eventually you get too depressed to live, because you're finally at your stone wall, trying to climb over it. You could fall down, but the important thing is that you always get back up again. I don't think you could understand unless you've gone through this already. But you just reach a point in your life, maybe multiple times, that is your breaking point. "all healthy men have thought of their own suicide" one in four people self harm. " Suicide is mans way of telling god 'you can't fire me!', 'I quit!' "Suicide does not end the chances of it getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better"

Sometimes people tell you that you're looking at it wrong, maybe your not looking it wrong, your eyes are just preventing your mind from whats right

All in all, please keep your head up. And never take your own life. It's special, and personally i'd maybe meet you someday, maybe run into you at the market, but maybe your life just hasn't found that one light yet. But never stop looking. Ever. You could maybe reach the stars, not the ground beneath your feet. Take the chance, and live. You never know what possibilities you could find.

1-800-273-TALK ( 8255 ) No matter what your going through they can give CONFIDENTIAL HELP and its free and open for calls 24/7. I've called and indeed a young woman did save my life. PLEASE CALL THIS LINE.  

Trans or gay

I understand that quite a lot of people a confused on weather they are trans or just gay. nobody can tell you what you are. because they wont ever know you like you do. transgender is when you want to be the opposite sex rather than your own, and at early childhood some lesbian, gays and transgender kids say they'd like to be the opposite sex, because their mind makes sense of the feelings, saying they should be the opposite sex. So honestly its what you think, and maybe your feelings will change in the future but maybe not. Its all up to what your mind decides.

Broken heart

Nothing hurts more than loving somebody who can't love you back. I think everyone knows what that feels like. And yet we still try to hang on to them like we can still hope. I want to tell all of the people out there who have had a broken heart, that it'll be okay. That if you cry, its okay. Because we all know what its like to be so hurt. And we all know what its like to feel useless. But somehow we still hope they could maybe... someday.. love you back. Stay strong.

How you can express your gay pride:)

Maybe It's just me, but one sure way of making me feel better is to get out my feelings by showing my gay pride. I've heard stories of amazing gay pride parade's that go on for days, with people just like us. That storm the streets and show off their pride. I always dream of going to one, and showing everyone how special I feel. Dressing up in rainbow colors, and dancing in the streets. Meeting new people, It all just sounds so meaningful. Sometimes I draw pictures to show how much I like who I am. Sometimes I just say it to myself,  let it all sink in. I like to color coordinate the beads in my bracelets to be gay pride colors. I just love who I am, not what I look like, not what I do everyday. I love my gay pride. It is my light, and it use to be my darkness. Until I realized, how special it makes me. Even by thinking about it, you can make yourself happier. You can express your gay pride to yourself in your head. because once you learn to love it, the world is a better place.

Why is it important to keep an open mind?

It's important to be free of any upsetting ideas, and feelings. So the idea is to be open to all that is good, and never let in any of the bad. You can do this by working out, eating healthy, riding your bike, playing your favorite video game. Anything to keep your mind in a good and happy safe place. Not letting the real world tell you how to be. This may seem hard, but what I like to do, when I get down about life. I sit in a dark room, with candles lit, and just think. Sometimes I wright, sometimes I shout, and sometimes I sing. It just helps me get all of my doubts out. And sometimes all I need to do, is cry it out. For my smile to come back. This may all be confusing, but when I get depressed the only thing on my mind is getting better. So I think you need to try your hardest to find your happy place. And keep an open mind to life. Its better once your free of hate. It gets better:) I promise.

Stressed?

Being gay, and in the closet is a strain. You have to refrain from exploding, because you feel like you can't tell a single person. Being out of the closet can be just as hard too. This is why gay people are more likely to commit suicide. And if that gay child was rejected by his/her parents, the chances go up. Being gay is stressful, it is hard. But there are a million people out there like you, and a lot of them have made it through the tough times. And so can you! The important thing is to never give up. Never let your emotions get the best of you, and remain genuine to who you are. If you aren't who you wanted to be, then keep trying. be the person you've always wanted to be .Follow your dreams, and never ever ever, let anyone tell you that you can't. You are your own person, so be who you want to be, not what people want you to be. Be yourself. And be true to who you are:)